A Lost Soul

Yes that's what I'm feeling like. I just can't get my head in the right place. I've paid an arm and a couple of legs to join WW at Home and I'm just stuffing around. Five weeks with them and I've lost 1.4kgs - how lame is that?? But I'm hanging on by my fingernails - at least I've managed to lose albeit pretty bloody pathetically. I'm trying to reach within and find that place where you miraculously get your shit together and do what you're meant to do.... and for me that means cutting out the alcohol. I'm thinking about it - now just need to get the thought to transmogrify into an action.

Elsewhere in my life - enjoying work - still really busy but back in control again. As I think I said - got a couple of younger team members playing the game a bit - (and our leader knows it) and as I said to her - hey I've been playing the game a lot longer than them - so just watch it! Actually I'm relishing being considerably more mature so don't feel the need to react at every little niggle - just pick my moments and if they carry on long enough this old lioness might roar!!!

Got myself an awesome little hair piece - no photos yet - must get some - it's a scrunchy style - drag all my own hair back and loop this little baby around the stump and it looks amazing - brilliant colour match to my own hair. My hairdresser lent it to me but I'm going to buy my own - only about $20 - cant afford not to!!!

Other news - Clive (no 2 son) still working in Korea - just been on R and R with his girlfriend in Bali and stayed here - amazed that he hasn't come back married or at the very least engaged! Now wouldn't this just be the most amazing place to stay?

A couple of weekends ago - OMG how long between posts - a friend was up from Brisbane and we went to Rocky (Rockhampton) for the day. A photo tribute to the purchases below :

Needed some cappucino cups for the new coffee machine

But then these little babies were $6 for the set of 4 - a little bit small but hey I'm adaptable

And then some clothes shopping - nice little top

This little dress was abot $20 - interesting hem line- back dips - love it

Bought this one after I'd bought the one below - looks brilliant with it

Almost passed this one up - the all in one pants suit fitted perfectly but the wrap over top looked crap - but decided I could modify the top and it was worth having the pants suit

Neat little dress which is one of thos scrunchy ones which will pack beautifully for our forthcoming trip



Note the candle holders on the left - got the set of 4 really  cheap -  cost me more for the candles!!

And that's the news folks.  I know I've been a bit quiet recently.  Kind of lost my blogging mojo.  But not prepared to just dip out - I've had far too much support here in the past so just trying to do the old "fake it till you make it".  And despite what you might think I am still reading.  How about you all leave me a comment and give me major guilts and I'll get back to being a good blogger again!

Have a great week possums!!!

Love

Zanna xxx

Normal Service Resumed

That how it feels for me this week - I survived the two weeks of doing two jobs - bloody near killed me but I got there.  There's no doubt that I put myself under undue pressure - I am such a perfectionist.  When a couple of things went wrong - nothing too drastic - both my current and previous bosses told me not to worry - "shit happens" - to which I replied - "not to me!!"  And it normally doesn't as I always prepare well so things run smoothly.  I think the other aspect which was causing me to stress - and I only just realised it today, was that one of the team I have joined was really quite disparaging when I was given the position - because I don't have an HR degree and she does.  She has since settled down (she's much younger than me) and on the surface is fine but I always feel that she's just waiting for me to do something wrong so she can pounce.  And of course - guess whose area I was having to cover for!!! So I was triple checking everything so she'd have nothing to 'get' me on when she got back.  I was actually discussing this with my boss as she gave me my performance review results today - and even though I've only been in the role 4 months she's really happy with how quickly I've picked up the reins.  Her comment was that there's varying ways to climb a mountain - you can land on the top with a helicopter (degree) or climb the long way up the winding path (me).  Anyway got a sizeable annual salary increase plus a fantastic incentive payment - so a happy camper tonight.

And now to WW at home - still plodding along - had a set back week before last - gained 400g which really baffled me as I'd been tracking faithfully and had been well down on the Friday and then shot up on the Monday.  However I've just kept on keeping on and am down 800g this week so progressing steadily.  I'm still cutting back on the alcohol - trying to have four or five AF days each week.  Next attack is to up the excercise and try and get back to walking regularly.  Linz mentioned a nifty little Iphone app called Sprint GPS which I've downloaded and about to try. But I was off and striding tonight when I got home from work so that's a good start.

Lots of photos following - we went for sundowner drinks a couple of weeks ago to a local lookout on the way out for dinner, then last Saturday we went to the Mayor's Ball in aid of flood relief - a wonderful excuse to get all dressed up.  Then I had my hair done on Monday night - got fed up with the style and colour so have had it shaped in at the back and gone to a much lighter shade of blonde.

Bloss and I at the lookout

Sunset at the lookout

The lookout is over QAL (Queensland Alumina)

We were looking after Curtis that afternoon so he came with us for the sundowner then we took him home before we went for dinner

All dressed up for the Ball

Got my hair upstyled - here's the back view

And the front view

Bloss and I

Les girls - for some reason I was giggling so shrugging my shoulders so looking like Nanny no Neck!

Bloss and I on the way in to the BAll

At the end of the night waiting for the Maxicab - somebody decorated me with a gold sash from the back of the chairs

New do - front

New do - back

New do - side

And that's all folks - hope everyone is well out in bloggy world.  Have a great week.
Love Zxx