Why?

I've been thinking about this a fair bit this week - I've been on this challenge for 10 weeks now and to be honest I'm finding it really easy not to mention very rewarding. So how is it that I was able to get my head into the right space to make this possible?  I have no idea but if I did I could make a fortune selling it! I mean last year I had the trip to Europe and I so wanted to lose some weight before that - and I would have enjoyed it so much better if I'd been 5kgs lighter but do you think I could get my act together and knuckle down and do what was necessary.  I knew what was required but I just couldn't get it together. And it's the same I know for so many of you out there - there's Chris over at Diet Coke Rocks - she's been bemoaning the weight she'd put on and for a long long time half heartedly trying to do something about it  - then suddenly bingo - it's as if a light went on and she's off and racing and truly focussed, then there's Jenny who's just had her daughter's wedding and wanted to shed a few kilos for that but would it happen - no and Nola who's battering herself round the head that she hasn't got her act properly together and isn't losing the way she should and that's only a couple of you - I know that Julie, Caroline, Linz and Starfish Sue are all struggling too.

When I came back from Europe I knew I had to do something about the kilos I'd put on as nothing looked good on me - and I did knuckle down and lost a couple of kilos before Christmas but then lost the momentum in January.  But then it was like all the planets aligned for me - I read about the 12 week Biggest Loser challenge on We are Slimming and I just decided to do it - but why was it right for me then? Yea sure the next holiday coming up - but that didn't work for the last one.  I've no profound answers to these questions but just wanted to I guess, commiserate with those of you who are struggling to get back on the horse of 'healthy eating' and maybe at the same time give you some hope that if you never ever give up, some day soon it will come together again for you.  And by the way I'm not for a minute saying that I won't wander off the track again - nothing surer than I will but better going for a wander after I've lost a kilo or six than wandering when I've still done nothing to shift that kilo or six.  My problem is usually holidays too - I maintain reasonably well between holidays but then gain on holiday but come back and go back into maintenance mode rather than loss mode.  However this trip we're only gone 4 weeks and Shaz battles her weight constantly too so we're kind of hoping we can keep each other from straying too far and then I'm planning to hold out the carrot to myself that after getting back in August from Europe - then the next trip is to Scotland in December - so the intention is that I'll jump straight back on the healthy eating horse.  Meantime although the challenge finishes in 2 more weeks I'm going to continue in loss mode right up to the holiday and try and get as low as I can.

So this week -here's my table - I've upped my exercise a fair bit and it seems to be making quite a difference - I'll update this tomorrow with my loss for this week. OK - 600g off this week - much happier with that and in fact yesterday it was 800g so feel like things have started moving properly again.

Day	Water	WW Pts	Wii Fit/ Walk	Wine
1	2 ltrs	17.5	20m	None
2	2 ltrs	16.5	21m+20m	None
3	2 ltrs	16	31m+20m	None
4	2 ltrs	16	31m+25m	None
5	2 ltrs	16	31m	None
6	2 ltrs	14	30m	None
7	2 ltrs	21	0m+25m	None
Totals	14 ltrs	117/126	4h 14m	None

I don't think I have much other news worth sharing - it was a short but busy week at work.  The work on the bathroom was due to start on Friday but the builder rang to say that he'd been held up on his previous job with a late delivery of timber so will now be starting on Tuesday.  This weekend I went and bought most of the small items for the new bathroom - stainless pedal bin, loo brush and toilet roll container, shower caddy, towels - bath, hand and washer - all black.  Tried to get black toilet mat - but could only find the one with the deep pile which is no good in our loo as the door opens over the mat and if it's the deep pile the reverse is true - it doesn't open!  Anyway found a set on EBay so have ordered them.  Meanwhile the spare room is chocka - all the contents of the bathroom vanity plus all the new gear for the bathroom plus my suitcase into which I pop bits and pieces as I buy them that I plan on taking with me.

Sorry it's all a bit waffly this week possums.  Hope you all have a top week.

Love Zxx

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Well given it was Easter and I've had a wonderful four days just relaxing around the house my table doesn't look too bad - I sampled half a hot cross bun with no butter and had one white chocolate Lindt ball - these are my very favouritest chocolates and so I savoured just one last night and was quite pleased with myself for stopping at one.   So I finished bang on points for the week.  I wakened Friday morning with a horrible headache so didn't do any Wii Fit and gave myself permission to have both Saturday and Sunday off since it was Easter - but back on track today.  And still no alcohol - that makes 9 weeks since I last had any. And my loss this week was a measly 100g - feel like I'm watching paint dry sometimes, - it's so bloody slow.  But as they say patience is a virtue and everything comes to he who waits and all that jazz!

Day	Water	WW Pts	Wii Fit/ Walk	Wine
1	2 ltrs	15.5	22m	None
2	2 ltrs	16	20m+20m	None
3	2 ltrs	14.5	20m+20m	None
4	2 ltrs	18.5	20m	None
5	2 ltrs	19.5	Sick	None
6	2 ltrs	17.5	Rest	None
7	2 ltrs	23	Rest	None
Totals	14 ltrs	126/126	2h 2m	None

Now to more exciting things-  I got a call on Thursday night that my ring was ready to pick up - but I was on my way out to join Bloss who was at the pub for a work function and had suggested I join him around 7pm and we'd have tea there so I couldn't race into town to get it.  I had to wait till Saturday morning to get it.  But I'm absolutely delighted with it - it looks bloody amazing and the design is just so different and special.  I've posted a few photos of it below - I haven't been able to show how much it sparkles as if I leave the flash on it rebounds off it and the result is no good.  My plan originally was to wear it on the same finger as my wedding ring and I got it sized accordingly but I think my fingers must have lost weight! as it also fits my middle finger and I now think it deserves a finger all to itself so will probably wear it on that one.

Got a huge compliment at work during the week.  The Training Superintendent at one of the sites I work at is transferring and the HR Manager asked if I would be interested in the position.  It would be a promotion for me but I've said no.  I used to have a team reporting to me but when I transferred to RT Services a bit over a year ago I opted to no longer have anyone reporting to me as I wanted a break from being a leader and just to enjoy focussing on me and my skills.  I'm still loving it and really enjoy my work.  Anyway this role would involve taking on a team which needs some serious work done to get them pulling together, working efficiently and sorting out a problem child or two.  So whilst I believe I could do it - the bottom line is I really don't want to.  It would mean lots of stress which I currently don't have and don't want, I'd have a 75km round trip 5 days a week rather than only 2 at present, and while I'd get a pay rise, I'm earning an excellent salary right now and so would end up paying the bulk of any increase in tax.  However nonetheless I'm highly honoured that I was considered for the role - as the HR Manager said it would be a real challenge and requires someone with 'a big boot' so nice to know I'm considered as having that capability.

The builder started on the bathroom/toilet renos on Thursday - he's got the toilet floor retiled and the new loo installed and I'm delighted with the way the new floor tiles look.  He's back again this Friday to start the bathroom and will be here on and off for the next two weeks getting it finished.  Must say I'm very impressed with the way he works - everything beautifully finished and leaves everything spotless when he's finished.  

Had Josh and Curtis on Saturday for the afternoon as Grant and Tiff went to the races. I took them both down to the local park and when we were ready to come home Curtis said he wanted to be carried so I sat on the park bench and told him to hop up behind me and jump on my back.  Next thing he's squawking like mad and when I looked round one of his legs had gone right down between the two slats on the seat.  He couldn't manage to pull it out and was yelping when I tried to get it out.  So I left Josh minding him and ran back to the house to get some washing up liquid to smear on his leg to let it slide out.  I arrived back puffing and panting, clutching a bottle of Fairy Liquid, to find him sitting up on the seat smiling happily - after I'd left he'd managed to get it out by himself!!  

So that's the news for this week - hope you all had a lovely Easter break and didn't do too much damage but anyway it only comes once a year and it's a long time till Christmas!!  Have a great week possums.

Love Z xx